When all else fails..

and I can't see the reality of things I breathe long breaths and close my eyes. When all else fails I count my blessings and say my prayers. When all else fails I take a bath and comb my hair because nothing else seems to matter. When all else fails I call a friend and try to laugh. I go to bed, I close my eyes and try to sleep. I reach for touch and long for love. When my mind goes blank and eyes see no more I know that life is not right. I try and collect my thoughts and ease my mind but my emotions won't let me. When all else fails I sing a song, a dance a dance and I drink til' contentment. When my clothes smell dirty and my nails are no more, when the walls seem small around me I know that I am not right. When things go wrong we need a friend, we need a moment, a song, a spot, a joy, a smile a realization that things are going to be o.k. When the world seems like it will not survive and trees become bare in the summer we know that things will not be alright. What do we do to make the nightmare stop? How can we stop and smell the flowers when the stems are black? How can we regain sanity when it all seems surreal? What will make a difference? Life is all those feelings that we feel when we breathe, when no one is around. When the kids go to bed, and lights go off and the shadows are lurking life happens. When all else fails.... Life begins!