Always looking...

Why is it that I am always looking for a new challenge? It is like I always want to make things a little better. I see nothing wrong with this.. but WHY? Why is there this constant need for me? It is very time consuming because once I get an idea in my head I cannot give up on it until it is finished or until I have utterly exhausted my efforts. I wonder if there is something missing in my life? Is it that I am not happy.. so I keep trying to fill that void with something?? Strange, it is!! Honestly I don't thing I would have it any other way. I just wish I didn't exhaust myself in this pursuit of mine. Oh well!! Just a thought I guess. It seems as though lately people keep asking me this very question. And I love when I am trying something brand new and then others after years of doing nothing, take me idea and develop it further as if it were theres. Am I not supposed to be offended by this??? Some would say I should be flattered. How can I be flattered when they are trying my idea behind my back and I find out later or through conversation. It makes me laugh!!! lol I am almost afraid to share my thoughts or research with anyone because I am afraid they will steal my idea and run with it. Then I would be SO MAD if they developed my idea before I did. That is not fair!! Get your own ideas... Be your your own person!! Geesh!!! Well I need to cut up some fruit for my darling little one.. Talk soon!!!